rushil | Paragraph

Shall I compare thee to a summer’s day? Thou art more lovely and more temperate: Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May, And summer’s lease hath all too short a date; Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines, And often is his gold complexion dimm’d; And every fair from fair sometime declines, By chance, or nature’s changing course, untrimm’d; But thy eternal summer shall not fade, Nor lose possession of that fair thou ow’st; Nor shall Death brag thou wander’st in his shade, When in eternal lines to time thou grow’st: So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see, So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.

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Jun 13

is it wrong to schedule back to back dates in one day?

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May 19

secret desire, flirting with zero knowledge, proofs to reach consent.

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Apr 29

the weekly deadlines diminishes the quality of my writing but does a good job at actually getting me to think which is more valuable

https://paragraph.com/@oversky/trust

\ \ Notes From The Oversky\ \ In Networks We Trust\ \ Trust can be a rare commodity in startup societies. We meet in passing under the same hotel roof without taking the time to learn the truth about each other. We meet during meals three times a day and get a new taste of each other's personalities. We have to agree on a certain set of rules, called etiquette and politeness, to make living together tolerable while avoiding unnecessary conflict. We see each other or avoid eye contact at hotel lobbies and social lounges both day and night. Trust ...](https://paragraph.com/@oversky/trust)

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Apr 14

These letters reflect reality as it passes through my filter, for my writing is intended for netizens of start-up societies.

https://paragraph.com/@oversky/writer

\ \ Notes From The Oversky\ \ The Writer's Purpose In Society\ \ Walking up to me was a Network School newcomer with food on his paper plate: "What kind of folks live around here?" "Well, stranger, what kind of folks was there in the country you come from?" "Well, they was mostly a lowdown, lying, gossiping, backbiting lot of people...](https://paragraph.com/@oversky/writer)

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Apr 7

notes on living in a ghost city:

https://paragraph.com/@oversky/fc

\ \ Notes From The Oversky\ \ The Forest Inside A Ghost City\ \ My purpose in going to Forest City is not to live cheaply, but to transact some private business with the fewest obstacles. I also want to be in solitude so that I can write. Thoreau had Walden, Didion had California, Baldwin had Saint-Paul de Vence, and I have Forest City...](https://paragraph.com/@oversky/fc)

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Apr 4

the type of woman, that can make you believe love, In fact, can exist.

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Mar 30

Wrote about my time living in network school. Plan to make it a weekly cadence since there’s a lot of material to cover here. Do subscribe if interested to see how it unfolds

https://paragraph.com/@oversky/ns

\ \ Notes From The Oversky\ \ The Network State Of Mind\ \ As I write these words, sitting across from me is a man worth billions. He’s in a plain white t-shirt, black shorts, and sandals, sipping a three-dollar coffee, no different from mine....](https://paragraph.com/@oversky/ns)

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Mar 23

What can a first impression tell us about someone we’ve just met for a minute in the lobby of a hotel? For that matter, what can a first impression tell us about anyone? Why, no more that a chord can tell us about Beethoven, or a brushstroke about Botticelli. By their very nature, human beings are so capricious, so complex, so delightfully contradictory, that they deserve not only our consideration, but our reconsideration, and our unwavering determination to withhold our opinion until we have engaged with them in every possible setting at every possible hour

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Mar 12

starting a substack for fun pls do subscribe as I crave attention tyty

https://npcmanifesto.substack.com/p/swing

\ \ Swing.\ \ Maryland, Late May](https://npcmanifesto.substack.com/p/swing)

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Mar 12

She pushed him with two fingers at first, lightly, as if the swing might refuse them both. The chains were wet from the rain. His sneakers flashed toward her and away again, the bottoms gone gray from the dusty playground, which now turned muddy. Each time he came back he laughed in silence, as if the air had taken it. Then she pushed again.

He did not shout, nor did he seem to want to go higher. She felt something old in herself open, the one between being twenty-four and being a mother of a three-year-old, wanting to be looked at and wanting to disappear. Her son leaned back against the seat, not from trust, but from the pull of motion, his small body giving itself to the swing. The light shifted, the park emptied and refilled, damp turned to chill, her body numbed, but she met each change as if for the first time.

He comes forward, she pushes, he swings out, he comes back. The park still belongs to afternoon. A stroller wheel drags through wet gravel, a father shakes rain from the hood of his sweatshirt, the smell of mulch lifts where the ground has begun to dry. Her fingers slip on the chains. They are colder now than they were before, though she does not seem to notice. His shoes keep finding the same dull shine as they swing toward her, then away. Once, a woman glances over as she gathers her daughter from the slides, then glances again, as if trying to place what is unusual. The woman leaves, and the swing keeps moving. He comes forward. She pushes.

He comes forward, she pushes, he goes out, he comes back. The voices thin first. Then the traffic beyond the fence changes from the flat rush of day to the separate passing of cars she can almost count, but again fails to notice. The damp in her sweatshirt turns clammy, then simply becomes her skin. He comes forward. She pushes. As the moon slips behind the clouds, the chill of dark arrives, while the chains remain in motion, all throughout the night. He comes forward, she pushes, he goes out, he comes back.

At dawn, police enter the park. A resident had called to report that a young woman had been pushing a toddler on a swing "for an unusually long period of time." One officer moved toward the swing as if to stop it. The child had been dead for forty-two hours.

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Mar 8

But I find that a traveller’s life is one that includes much pain amidst its enjoyment. My feelings are forever on the stretch; and when I begin to sink into repose, I find myself obliged to quit that on which I rest in pleasure for something new, which again engages my attention, and which I also forsake for other novelties

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Feb 26

I am seated in an uber from bcity. I am listening to KT Saint Janet -Arabambi Fa, an afro track that’s calming my nerves. Moments ago I witnessed a man fall off his bike. He was drunk. It was a hard fall. He stumbled while getting up. His manoeuvre was sloppy. I didn’t hear him fall because I was standing by the bus stand, waiting for my uber, listening to some song from soundcloud. I recorded him because I thought it’d make for a good story on the gram, blissfully unaware that the flash was on for him to see.

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Feb 26

the man on your left, was doing the fenty fold, just moments ago.

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Feb 21

so data agents and conversations are something I’ve been falling into some rabbit holes in. I am working on writing fictional characters. No matter how unhinged the thoughts, it is fictional meant as prose, not evidence

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Feb 16

fourth draft:

Not everyone who performs is lost. We perform for progress, especially in this stage of social media where content is king and the creator its obedient servant. All of us go home each evening and at some moment, with whatever degree of awareness, review the signs that sustain the continuity of our character. The dilemma of the performative person is believing that one day their act will be done. “I’m only doing this now so that one day I can do what I really want with my life.” The passport bro may say, “I will travel and sow my wild oats… only then will I settle down with a woman to have children.” The situationship may think, “If I stay with him long enough, he’ll commit to me one day.” Both operate on the pretence that things will be different in a fundamental way as long as their act continues. It rarely does. They may not intend malice, let alone plan for it, but performative people justify thinking too highly of themselves. “I am good, am I not, very, very good? All right then, tell me why I am so good.” The clueless consultant who is sent into his office to find clients is hardly encouraged to fix their problems. He sees only his clients and his computer, then sinks into the role of a cog in the corporate machine. Boring professors’ lectures have scarcely any ideal worth; they are ridden by the routine of research, subjecting their souls to dollars. Dull students become messengers for artificial intelligence, outsourcing their lessons to machines that are far from creative. Their daily rehearsal may become permanent. The passport bro who rents intimacy learns to negotiate desire. The consultant who sells certainty learns to avoid doubt. The student who delegates thought learns without understanding. So it goes for consultants, professors, students and passport bros: they wake up more refined at being what they already were. The solution is simple and deeply uncinematic. Identifying a performative male is like running a Turing test to see whether a machine is human; you’ll know he’s real when he stops pretending. Like the For You Page, such people become clever algorithms designed to manufacture admiration, not meaning—running until the man inside realizes he has worked overtime to impress people who are not actually there. The only sensible escape is without an audience. It’s the same feeling Truman felt as he exited his show: “In case I don’t see you, good afternoon, good evening, and good night.”

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Feb 11

letter to my valentine:

If a person were an emergent, quasi-autonomous flow of information. Where this person can exist in multiple instances, some different from each other, some not. If we are outputs dependent on results that were computed in vast numbers of different histories of the same few atoms. Atoms existing in multiple instances that shape the person across different dimensions. If people were all that and more, it would suggest that soulmates can exist on this vast multiplicity of universes.

Yes, it is a fact that people are universal explainers, so one's love for another spanning across multiverses should not be considered fiction. Would the origin of their love be from the beginning of infinity? After all, love is a computation which, given a theory of how the computer on which it runs works, establishes the truth of some abstract relationship. Most women may disagree with me, claiming that love cannot be an algorithm, naively believing that it is simply a feeling that cannot be explained. I often find myself in agreement, hoping they don't feel the same after I've slept with them.

Yes, love is an unconditional, detached, and pure form of friendship that cannot be defined, but only falsified. It is a commitment to keep improving our explanations of each other, to learn beyond what I already know about you. This unpredictability of the content of future love is a necessary condition for the unlimited growth of that love. Yet, whatever branches the future contains, in this one I’m grateful you exist.

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Nov 29, 2025

I got an idea on creator coins and I want to write more so launching this made sense, do read, do subscribe, and do buy, tyty

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Nov 24, 2025

lmk what u think

https://paragraph.com/@oversky/ns?utm_source=ig&utm_medium=social&utm_content=link_in_bio&fbclid=PAZnRzaAORdJhleHRuA2FlbQIxMQBzcnRjBmFwcF9pZA8xMjQwMjQ1NzQyODc0MTQAAac1GkmnLJYe0hBJ3wcusULSJbB4ZIeY-eTKD4Np8pnT7ozlhoJNdGnZvmOA5w_aem_JFwy9mfDTQinAZK00u6BCg

\ \ Network School: Light Forest For Dark Talent\ \ As I write these words, sitting across from me is a man worth billions. He’s in a plain white t-shirt, black shorts, and sandals, sipping a three-dollar coffee, no different from mine. Balaji Srinivasan, the author of The Network State and founder of a future country...](https://paragraph.com/@oversky/ns?utm_source=ig&utm_medium=social&utm_content=link_in_bio&fbclid=PAZnRzaAORdJhleHRuA2FlbQIxMQBzcnRjBmFwcF9pZA8xMjQwMjQ1NzQyODc0MTQAAac1GkmnLJYe0hBJ3wcusULSJbB4ZIeY-eTKD4Np8pnT7ozlhoJNdGnZvmOA5w_aem_JFwy9mfDTQinAZK00u6BCg)

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Nov 19, 2025

a woman tells a man to sit up, never slouch, “have a string poising the point in your spine and neck.” The man listened, and held his head up to her, until they had to depart, to which the string severs and his head faces hell

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Nov 19, 2025

is anyone else’s ig feeds crazy rn or am I just messed up

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Nov 12, 2025

I question whether my self depreciated behaviours will lead to my detriment despite farming cherished memories

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Nov 11, 2025

I could have and I did have are the two sides of a story a man from a jazz club in thailand tells me

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Nov 11, 2025

breakups cause entirely new modes of creation and problem-solving. your struggles and stresses have made who you are despite your wanting to build something new without historical constraint

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Nov 2, 2025

what if the only green flag an ex had is that they were a red flag all along?

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Nov 2, 2025

I’m in Korean, the country where an uber driver will play Go in a red light

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Nov 2, 2025

I am caught in my life. In my thoughts, and in my hungers and ambitions, my vices and cruelty, or kindness and generosity as well, in the net of good and evil

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Oct 29, 2025

when particles collide, both matter and antimatter are born. Antimatter is the same mass as ordinary matter but opposite electric charge and quantum properties. The antimatter never lasts. It erases itself on contact. By all logic, both should not have survived the universe’s beginning, yet matter did. Something made antimatter easier to destroy. In every creation, it seems, one side learns to endure while the other disappears

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Oct 29, 2025

her face gives historic tones that rhyme in the melody of beauty

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Oct 28, 2025

I got pro for this

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Oct 25, 2025

one way to tell millennial from genz is how they type short form of please. is it pls or plz?

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Oct 25, 2025

harmless flirting gives me playful vibes until I fall for the person and realize we weren’t flirting and just have amazing platonic banter that will probably never translate to romance. this my friends is known as the dilemma of the man to afraid to climb to the woman he’s placed on a pedestal

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Oct 24, 2025

select survival, middle of a dark forest, better stay quiet.

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Oct 22, 2025

People have a need for security and a deep desire for recognition. We want to identify with some group and have control over our own fate. If unmet, these needs can block agreement

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Oct 17, 2025

went to JB to shop for some traditional Indian clothing for Diwali. saw cool stuff and will be going for a hike tmr. I should prob cast more cuz life has been too sublime as of recent but so much so my phone time is zilch

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Oct 17, 2025

There’s a scene in Thor Ragnarok, where the God of Thunder talks to Odin about the Kingdom of Asgard getting destroyed. To which, Odin responds, “Asgard isn’t a place. Never was. This could be Asgard. Asgard is where our people stand.” It’s how I think about Farcaster

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Oct 17, 2025

The conditions of social scalability is to form a community of people to do great things together and to want more from reality. Man is not a slave to race or religion, but his own programming, and productive societies are made from people that have character, common sense, creativity, and civility. With that being said, we share the same human nature, which makes us more alike than different. People behave similarly when faced with similar circumstances

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Aug 29, 2025

back to blogging

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Aug 28, 2025

camouflaged moment, bird going far from his nest, onward to the next.

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Aug 26, 2025

When one spends their 9-5 staring at medium screens, they tend to escape by scrolling on smaller screens or pay attention to larger screens

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Aug 26, 2025

agreed labubus are dumb but I love my lafufu

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Aug 26, 2025

sometimes there are highs, feeling like the kiwi bird, flying to the lows.

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Aug 25, 2025

on today’s bike ride

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Aug 24, 2025

Digital Footprints From Dark Forests

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Aug 24, 2025

My hobbies as of right now are traveling, writing, developing software, raving, biking, finding yote, reviewing washrooms of clubs, and reading. I probably read more than the other side quests, but as a libra, I like to keep things well balanced. I used to have another hobby of stealing bottles from clubs, but I’ve since stopped after I got caught on CCTV footage of some toronto bar called apartment 200. The way I see it, writing is an in the moment act. It’s about my own projections, insecurities, justifications, hoping for an explanation stitched to the fabric of reality. Sure, I’ll come back to read what I wrote and cringe because it’s written in shame. Just know, I edit down to what I feel is a viable explanation of my thought process.. Things do not need to be perfect to be wonderful. Especially letters from 6to6. We acknowledge that content is king. Long live content.

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Aug 23, 2025

we don’t read or write poetry because it’s cute, we read and write poetry because women exist

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Aug 22, 2025

she’s between backseats, girl on left, boy on her right, two for one special.

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Aug 21, 2025

on today’s bike ride

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Aug 21, 2025

the stories remembered and repeated about a wifey cover every field but the bedroom

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Aug 21, 2025

act out being alive, like a movie, and after awhile, a long while, it’ll be true

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Aug 20, 2025

issue with exes, sweeping problems under rugs, to wrestle on beds.

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Aug 18, 2025

on today’s bike ride

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Aug 18, 2025

I consider myself to be a human test tube, one made of flesh, mixing a concoction of chemicals in my brain, either clouding or revealing my mind

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Aug 18, 2025

find yote.

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Aug 18, 2025

this guy was actually homeless, saw him today despite taking the pic last week

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Aug 18, 2025

thought he was homeless, but he lived in a home in downtown toronto

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Aug 18, 2025

newsletters are cool and all, but farcaster is a good place for letters to friends who are actually strangers. i want my casts to be considered as such. id also not like much virality in my account so that its a dark forrest for friends who are actually strangers. as a friend, im not typically the type to reach out first. i would hope other friends approach me, but I find that I lack the charisma to be the friend who reaches out first. I like to think that I have charm so that friends feel the need to reach out to me. so I'd rather for you, those who can see my casts, see them letters about myself. and i will feel seen writing it

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Jul 15, 2025

walking along that line at love island watching part by crave in downtown toronto made me glad to have watched this love island season I fell in love multiple times

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Jul 15, 2025

need three ppl to subscribe so the 200+ changes to 300+ pls tune it to letters from 6to6, essentially some new writing experiment, starting from scratch again

https://paragraph.com/@oversky

\ \ 6to6\ \ collecting stories from toronto, cultures, or the internet](https://paragraph.com/@oversky)

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Jul 11, 2025

you can’t feel nothing, skin never not touching world, one with everything.

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Jul 10, 2025

no hands on todays bike ride

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Jul 10, 2025

creaks are bound to close, roses are seen through windows, ignore shutting doors.

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Jul 10, 2025

Apologies for my weaponized incompetence during the tenure of our relationship. The nonchalant attitudes and avoidant platitudes you didn’t deserve. You see, at some point in time, in my mind, was a means to an end. Only, you saw something more. Sorry for not seeing your vision. I was unsure. The door has closed. Im afraid that reopening it again will lead to the same door shutting. Then even more suffering. So I urge you, don’t yearn for an opening or listen for creaks. Lock in to something better

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Jul 8, 2025

temptation exists, reminders that desires root, seeds of suffering.

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Jul 8, 2025

if socialmedias were drugs then tiktok would be molly, instagram would be coke, and farcaster would be viagra

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Jul 7, 2025

we stare at yote because doing so will allow us to continue our life with the least possible delay

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Jul 6, 2025

wanting so hard to say multiple things at the same time because all the branches of our decision tree of what to say next are exactly equally weighted

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Jul 6, 2025

yote isn’t a puzzle, it’s a wave

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Jul 6, 2025

I will refrain from prescribing how you should live. I am making it up. I may claim awareness that proves to be useful or valuable to you, but I have no clue. As I feel the fabric of reality, I will figure those feelings with words and share its warmth with you. These letters are written by me (yes handwritten in a notebook somewhere before it gets sent to you). Fun. That's all I ask from you. I want writing this to be as fun as reading it

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Jul 5, 2025

I nearly got into a fight at an LA bar once. I practice pickpocketing people when I'm drunk and bored in a club somewhere. I give it everything back, unless it's a bottle from the bar. There was a time I tried pickpocketing a random girl in a toronto club called isabelas. She had an iPhone sticking out of her left backpocket. A friend dared me to lift it from her, and because I was drunk and bored, I did it. Only, she caught me. I was too sloppy with the technique. Anyway, that's not the reason for why I almost got in a fight. The toronto girls took it lightly. The men in LA did not. First, it was the end of the night, but the bar had an afterparty reserved for a friendgroup celebrating. My friendgroup managed to sneak in somehow. Again, I was drunk and bored, so had my sights on a man. I had my wits and thought rather than going straight for the target, start by telling their friends you want to pickpocket the target. That way, the friends are aware, I return what I steal, or get caught with credibility.

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Jul 5, 2025

Ever see a whimsical guy crossing the road? Or gaze at a bridge written by yote?

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Jul 5, 2025

please don’t dance so fast, follow flows of here and now, the music won’t last.

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Jul 4, 2025

The modern world doesn’t excite me. I want yote. The sense and colours. The shifting shadows of the word

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Jul 2, 2025

sorry to stain you, burned coals on your scarless face, branded, drunken angst.

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Jul 2, 2025

happy Canada Day happy campers

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Jun 30, 2025

finding yote comes with baggage and trash

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Jun 25, 2025

her eyes watering, when I sat across saying, she wasnt enough.

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May 24, 2025

so can’t write about haikus about breaking up a relationship when ur a guy

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May 24, 2025

washroom, so I wait, contemplating, continue? thoughts before breakup.

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May 21, 2025

find Yote. If you wish someone were here with you, or dump them like trash, it all leads to Yote. Find whatever Yote may be. Bike if you must

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May 19, 2025

she texts me good night, I reply with good morning, knowing it will end.

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May 17, 2025

can’t break ur streak

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May 17, 2025

false positivity makes you inauthentic, sure, but it also makes you delusional

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May 17, 2025

Is it true? Is it necessary? Is it kind?

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May 17, 2025

Truth is, I meant everything I’ve said up until now. I was fooling myself, but it took me until now to figure it out for myself, and now that I have, it’s only right for me to explain what I’m thinking. I don’t think we’ll work out. It had to be said. I could’ve stitched a better sentence to cushion the blow, but it’s the simplest way I can put it. You may ask why I think we may not work out? A valid question, but would you want the answer if it were heartbreaking?

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May 17, 2025

we all love narrating justifications that aid in the continuity of our discourse

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rush](https://paragraph.com/0x113ec1cf5282b00a58cbac9aecf53f3a98fbbcb9)

May 17, 2025

knowing esoteric things about dopamine will not make you the manipulator of attention (of you or others). attention is not earned, it’s simply noticed until it passes

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May 17, 2025

I’d rather be known as a heartbreaker than a cheater, because a breakup from cheating is worse than a heartbreak. This also means I’d rather be known as a player than a cheater. I’m not either, Inshallah

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rush](https://paragraph.com/0x113ec1cf5282b00a58cbac9aecf53f3a98fbbcb9)

May 17, 2025

what is a haiku? all seventeen syllables, with valuable words.

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May 17, 2025

if you learn to negotiate, you can end up with a wife you adores. You risk settling otherwise

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May 16, 2025

lol gotta share kinda scam

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May 16, 2025

find Yote.

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May 16, 2025

trynna define values

For your words to have value, you must know what your values are. The nature of good and bad, what relative worth you give to things, people, and events of your life. The values that embed themselves to us from moral or religious ideas, founded in culture. Values define the parameters of their actions. They indicate to those who share them what is desirable, to what degree it is desirable, and what we should strive for. They also provide us with a guidance system to choose the “right” alternative when several courses of action are possible. this is where your values conflict. You like your boyfriend, but do you love him? Then problems arise. When and how do you go about breaking up with him? Those two questions will define values to your core.

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rush](https://paragraph.com/0x113ec1cf5282b00a58cbac9aecf53f3a98fbbcb9)

May 15, 2025

how does somebody, with grace, breakup with someone, without breaking hearts?

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rush](https://paragraph.com/0x113ec1cf5282b00a58cbac9aecf53f3a98fbbcb9)

May 15, 2025

I’ve put a stop to reading fiction for awhile. got too sentimental. getting into calculated vibes the next quarter. the non fiction reading list:

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May 14, 2025

more Yote

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May 13, 2025

Data modeling and dating aren’t that different. Both involve relationships. With database relationships, there can be one-to-one, one-to-many, and many-to-many. Dating relationships work the same (exclusive, cheating, and polyamory). Data modeling is meant to be predictable while dating is uncertain. Modeling data is working with set amounts of existing information, structuring it to make sense. Dating never makes sense. It’s meant to be volatile until you find someone to make sense of it all together.

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