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the Free Fall Poem series

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the Free Fall poem series ❤
//note: the creation is for us to understand that however big the struggle was/is/might be, we could always heal/bounce back/reclaim the power of wisdom, love and all there ever is to explore in the world. *pls believe in the power of L. O. V. E.

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Free Fall poem 03 [how did a fairy, after free-falling onto Earth, grow up 'from' a loving family & always climbing up to higher spots to free-fall again?]

you love your parents

you love your grandparents

you love the ones who love you and you show 'em that

your generations have your own unique ways

of showing 'em love as well.

being as patient as possible to each other

with so much love

so much that

you choose to treasure these moments

while you love what you have to be doing on your own from now on...

all of the loveliest people around have done their very best

to nurture you all these times...

and you'd be doing the same right now as well...

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such a cute baby...

oh, you were never

'just a baby' according to your Mummy

since your birth.

you were born in

the best of times and/or the worst of minds?

with a mix of what you can't tell yet, maybe?

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Mum said that you rushed crawling

while you straightened your knees right after

9 months being born on Earth...

standing straight and always looking far

with your heavy body and head

shaking here and there

even when your family members were quite worried

and told you that it's okay to sit, sleep or relax...

ha... you're just always all hyped up and genuinely curious... since you're born.

as if you knew what you've always wanted to do

and you can't understand why so many people didn't know what they want to do

'cause you have so much to share with them

that they too could have life anchors

so that they would bounce back with you every time y'all free fall.

Y O U

were once so happy to arrive on Earth...

you're puzzled 'cause you didn't remember that most amazing part of your life just yet.

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right after 3 days of crawlin' holding or touching the support

all around that you just grasped naturally,

Mum said that you just happened to R-U-N to places happily... yes, you didn't try walkin' you only crawled, stood up and ran like a MANIAC!!! they made a Chinese saying for you

back in Puchong, Selangor, Malaysia...

'don't know how to walk, but just run. 唔识行，就识走；

don't know how to run, but just jump. 唔识走，就识跳；

don't know how to jump, do you know to just fly?' 唔识跳，唔通识飞？

you said whatever until you came back one day, saying: 'well, I didn't answer 'em since decades. for now, I'll say [Y E S]. and, it's not even going to end as it had only just begun.'

from lil'-to-none of the pictures of yours

in the family's

old glass shelves at the old house

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to most of the pictures

being Y O U at the most obvious spots

all around the house...

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you're just trying to enjoy life

and each wander appearing in your life, always...

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oh, that LIL' OLD YOU seemed so HAPPY

your fam' also said that they took pictures of yours

when they saw you climbing up to the tallest places, always ??? sitting on top of the slide of in a playground without sliding down...

climbing up some random bars looking far into the distance not knowing what's that...

getting up to sit on the dining table without wanting to get down... your parents just let you go climb 'em

so you just climb and climb and climb...

and you didn't hope to get down as you stared into a far distance...

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oh, dear,

what was it that made you get up there

all this time?

and, you got to remember this part where you think that the ground is so

DANGEROUS!!!...!!!

you just imagined

lava, flood, and the insane creatures from the nightmares

that you just don't hope to name 'em at all... you were afraid of so many things that only you knew...

dissolving f e a r again and again...

believing in

the power of

L. O. V. E.

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well,

well,

well...

how did you get through it all? hmmm...

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Dad told you how to switch on the light after 11 months of getting on Earth... you love to click on the light, and yelled 'L - I - G - H - T!' 'light!' 'LIGHT AHHH!'

then, you also know how to switch on the fan and screamed 'F - A - N!' 'fan!' 'FAN AHHH!'

how cute, how happy, how curious...

your family is so happy that you're adapting to the physical world on Earth so fast...

you're happy too...

'Cause you got to dive yourself into all the

FAIRY TALES that warmed~ yoursmall lil' heartright there

when you were around one years old.

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you

were such a sweetheart.

are you, still?

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you saw the pictures of yourself

with the smile slowly fading... and you said ' Oh Gosh, I'm not the emo kid, please!''

lucky for you,

you did have the moments

when you smiled the brightest...

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but erm... you could reconsider

the ways

you just hug and strangle the others

at the same time...

maybe?

yet,

more things of yours sort of scared the whole family... the ways you just happened to draw

biomedical devices since you were 5 years old after the minor surgery

that the others were kept on asking you 'bout the physical pain

while you only remembered how you panicked _as you were being pushed into the operating room with extremely bright white lights_ then, the surgeon handed you a glove with air being pumped saying that Mummy's inside

but you weren't dumb... you were just young...

never mind.

you had monologues playing in your mind, ' I could play along... ' you turned 'em into dialogues, ' Mummy... Daddy... Ah Ma... inside... okay...' you hugged the glove so tightly... trying not to let the eyelids shut... yet...

S

L

O

W

L

Y

you became

unconscious...

then, you remembered 'bout most things that happened in between too...

maybe playing with someone...

maybe having Mummy's new doll for you...

maybe having ice cream... _that exact same night appeared in your therapeutic sessions for healing so many times..._ you just stared at the only light source in the darkest room while you hear the other kids crying in the other rooms...

you knew that there's nobody as Mummy isn't allowed to be in after a while...

you knew that Daddy's working hard for what's needed for you at that time...

you knew that the nurses would only stay for 6 seconds for the longest peek at night...

so, you

actually

did NOT

understand

why were you staring at the source of LIGHT... what were you looking at? why are you always looking far? where do you really belong?

art by ૮ℓเσɳα Chee Pui Khei 徐𣳽琪 [a heart in a labyrinth]

you didn't even remember

if you've slept or not...

but you just happened to remember

the way you stared into the the light out of the door on the left

while the nurses or doctors just do something or yawn

during their night shifts

you were thinking of the insane things & said you wanted to create the medical devices

just because of that incident? but then, you remembered that you've always wanted to do so

but that incident

might have made you felt in a way that you really have to do so to not let any other living souls go through the same pain...

if there seems to be an Ꝏ infinite amount of 'whatever' to solve all at once, we could also b - r - e - a - k an infinite amount of those into an O O undefined number that wouldn't branch or lessen the suffer one way or another... in any other ways...

like, any ways... but you only knew that there were Doctors or Specialists back then... so, your Dad bought you toy stethoscope, medical robes and more to play with... you were thinking 'bout the more amazing and useful ways while you were having fun finding flaws and fixing 'em telling yourself to grow faster grow stronger grow wiser for the people, you said, for the living souls...

then, you found out about

'biomedical engineering' as a teenager? but, let us get back to being the 5-year-old kid for a while...

NOW & then? your family still didn't know if you could make it

but they've always been supportive with the devices and resources needed

while you also work your way up to gain yours in your ways.

they're also worried about you

as you seemed so flawed and flawless at the same time you could be suddenly falling, but suddenly rising up? it's as if the person within you is always

and, I do mean that you were just always... having... entirely different moods, actions and thoughts...

THANK YOU

for being able to still

grow healthily, happily and bounce back

again and again...

FF poem 03 art of tree of life 01 by ૮ℓเσɳα Chee Pui Khei 徐𣳽琪

so, were you a sweetheart

or a cold-hearted saboteur? you remembered... you didn't get into the magical world to be serious, but you got here to have fun...

FF poem 03 art of tree of life 02 by ૮ℓเσɳα Chee Pui Khei 徐𣳽琪

it's been a long time coming

that you've forgotten it all

when some gave you words sharper

than ketupats' edges

while everyone's saying 'show mercy' and all... you wonder why not just 'be the ones who deserve and share love as equals', that's all?

FF poem 03 art of tree of life 03 by ૮ℓเσɳα Chee Pui Khei 徐𣳽琪

you've forgotten all the ways

that you had so much fun with

everything and anything at all.

FF poem 03 art of tree of life 04 by ૮ℓเσɳα Chee Pui Khei 徐𣳽琪

you've asked this again and again

but you never stop questioning yourself, { why are you so stuck in such a broken matrix, still? } { when you knew that you could break free from anything all along? } { is it supposed to be for anyone else, but you? } It was. but where's that tiny lil' fairy in you? hidden deep inside the frozen palace of your heart, shivering still.'

with love,

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